There is so much more

There is so much more to life and i think i finally figured it all out! recently i went back to Colorado to visit my parents and sisters. it was a lovely visit, i would say personally the best visit i have ever had since moving out 5 years ago. the difference was, i figured out there is so much more to life then myself. I have always been a person who has though of themselves of being real with people around them. but i haven't been that way at all, especially with my family. i have always had this guard up and i don't know why and that bothered me. so the best way to deal with it was moving away and visiting a few times a year. But in the last year i have been happy with where i am right now just in life, being married, living in Canada and what not. but i also have had that struggle with wanting a better relationship with my family. So upon this last trip home i decided to conquer that and actually make time, and it was wonderful! My sisters are strong women of God who bring so many great things to the table. i was able to spend some alone time with both of them and was really blessed by just who they are. i found that finally after all these years of me really putting myself above them and my feelings i see how i was a selfish person. And let me just say that is always hard to admit but God has opened my eyes to how i have hurt myself by being the way i was with the relationships in my life.

we sing the song at church, "there must be more then this"...... and for me it finally clicked in my thick head of mine. There is more to my family then just my family. there are precious relationships to pursue and cultivate.

here are some pics of my trip.....

Jamie and I on our Hike in the Mountains. My Grandpa and I at Ben's Baseball game



My sister Tori and her baby Alaina . My parents they are so cute!