faithful

Some days it feels like life is crazy! i don't sleep much, i stress out about whatever is going on at work or in my ministries. and what it all comes down to is i forget God. and to think of that makes me sad and laugh all at the same time.

Now, i grew up in i would say one of the strongest Christian homes you could think of. i have and had grounded, amazing parents who loved and cared for me no matter what kind of attitude i gave them, or stupid stuff i pulled. I went to church from the time i was born and started my own real relationship with God when i was 13. i was filled with the Holy Spirit and began speaking in tongue when i was 9 and heard God's voice at the age of 13 clearly. i started going on missions trips at the age of 14 and have always trusted in God's voice in my life. And when i forget God it makes me mad at myself. Why do i forget God? How can i forget God? He is ever present in my life, always there and always faithful! but that would be the main thing i feel the Lord is teaching me right now, is how to fully trust in Him and put my full faith in Him. He is forever faithful to those who love Him.

I was listening to a song yesterday and today and it makes me just sit and think, here is the chorus to the song Faithful by Amanda Falk:

God you are Faithful
when my faith is gone
when i am so fragile
no I'm not alone

This is so true. God is so faithful even when i don't feel i can go on, even when i forget Him. He is faithful!

Lately i have felt very fragile, and God has really come through and put some pretty awesome older women in my path. Even though he has given my opportunity's to mentor people under me, he is finally giving me a mentor something that i have longed for, forever but been to scared to do something about it!

I am breaking free, and i am starting to walk in His faithfulness. Thank you Lord for your Faithfulness!